Giving.

And just like that, Jimmie somehow managed to make anymore discussion on the topic at hand useless with one perfect quote. 

"It's like a blood donor trying to donate blood for an entire bank by themselves when there are billions of other people out there who also have blood."

We all have our own personality quirks. Some of us are brash and outgoing. Some of us are shy and serious. Somehow I have always been a sort of jack of all trades in the personality department. I can be whatever the situation calls for me to be, because at my core, I just want to be whatever people need me to be in order to make their lives better. 

So I found myself talking to one of my favorite people, Jimmie Getty today. I was telling him about how disconnected I feel with everyone I know because life just seems to be working out for everyone but me. I was definitely a bit whiny. Questioning the fact that the only lesson God ever seems to be teaching me is that "life isn't fair." Which Jimmie claims could just as easily learned playing Mario Kart. 

Either way. I'm feeling fairly used up at the moment. Like I've given all of my best parts to others and I haven't been left with a whole lot after the transactions. That's when Jimmie brought up the blood bank, and it just resonated with me. 

Everybody thinks their a giving person. Everyone thinks they're the one who gets taken advantage of. And very few actually are. In fact, some of the people I know who would describe themselves this way with the most conviction, are some of the very people who are probably the most self absorbed people I know. I don't hold it against them, we all have some level of selfishness. In fact, if I were honest, I would tell you that I don't believe I have ever personally witnessed a single selfless act in my life. But then again, what do I know?

I guess sometimes I find myself giving and giving just to see a smile on other's faces. And hoping that somehow life will just pay it back to me because deep down we all want to believe that there's some kind of karma in the world ensuring that our good deeds are rewarded. Isn't that why the good guy always gets what he wants in the movies? 

I guess what I'm trying to say is that anybody reading this should really find someone to listen to today. And don't turn it into an excuse to talk about your problems/how incredibly happy you are. Just be there for somebody, and know that there's very little chance that it will pay off, but maybe...just maybe, you'll find that you're giving to someone who had almost nothing left.