Forget and Not Slow Down

So I think part of the reason I do this is to keep people posted on my life. Although I really hate doing that because I can't imagine why people really care all that much. Although I hate small talk even more, so if telling things here helps me to avoid even a tiny amount of small talk then it's worth it.

I should probably mention that another reason I do this is to torture family members into thinking I'm miserable when I'm not :) There's also the fact that I also like to get people riled about about political stuff that I really couldn't care less about.

This post will meet the first purpose.

So I'm moving to lovely Willard, Ohio at the end of the month. I will be continuing to work at not so lovely Whirlpool, and my drive to work will increase substantially. But, I will be living a pseudo independent life, which pleases me greatly. And I could not ask for a better roommate...the one and only Mr. Dan Miller.

I feel a little bit of fear in all of this...stepping out into an uncomfortable situation...and leaving a very comfortable situation. That's the point though isn't it?

This year has been filled with giant mountains and deep valleys. One might be able to use the phrase "euphoric misery" to describe it. (I believe I just fulfilled the second purpose....Obama...and that's three :) I have learned this fantastic truth about God. I had somebody tell me that if I follow God that I will be happy...and while the spirit of this might be true, the reality is that it's most definitely not...at least in the moment it's not. Following what has been put before me to do has actually been awful at times. I've been led on paths that have looked like utter nonsense at times. But yet here I stand. And a lot of that utter nonsense is starting to make sense.

You see...I asked for change. I asked for a life that would change others. I asked for His will to be done. And you cannot ask for those things if you're not willing to suffer on some level. I'm not saying you'll be miserable...on the contrary, I feel quite content most of the time. But, I also know that in my experience, change doesn't come without a cost. I mean...it's suffering that produces perseverance right?

And while I'd hardly want to use the word suffer to describe my experiences, I definitely have found myself quite empty more than a few times. Especially in the last couple of weeks. And what I've found is that when you're empty, and alone, then there's nothing in your life that can possibly deter you from seeing God for who he is in that moment.

That's Beautiful. And worth whatever it took to get you there.

All of this is to say that my path has led me to a new place, a new people, and a new opportunity to serve in ways I can't imagine. And I even get to be uncomfortable. How fantastic is that?